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Monday, April 4th, 2016
3:42 pm
Letter to My 13-year-old self
Dear thirteen-year-old self,

You’re not alone. I know you feel that way because no one is telling you anything or explaining anything to you. I want you to know, I understand. I understand because I was there many times before. I was you. I see you, sweet girl. I see your body shaking with fear; I see the tears streaming down your face as the prep process you’ve grown accustomed to and learned to hate goes on around you. I see you flinch when the nurse takes your arm and prepares to start an IV without telling you when she’s actually going to stick it in. I know how that feels. The familiar and dreaded process is bad enough when you can see. And even though you have most of your sight in your left eye still, you deserve some type of warning before anyone touches you. It’s just common courtesy. I see you cringe when the words “It’s time,” are spoken, even if the nurse speaking them has been nothing but nice to you. I see the fear flash across your face as the gurney moves forward. I know the thoughts going through your mind as you get closer to a destination you don’t want to reach. Your thoughts are racing with questions, ‘why again? What did I do to deserve this?’ The answer is nothing. You did absolutely nothing to deserve this terrifying routine. No matter what anyone else says, I want you to know you are NOT to blame. The hand the O.R nurse has extended, I want you to hold onto it tightly. Hold on tightly because she’s being sincere in her actions and in the gentle way she speaks to you. She cares. I know you can’t see the expression due to your vision loss and the mask she’s wearing, but trust me when I say it’s one of compassion and concern. Her words say it all. “It’ll be okay, sweetie. You’re safe. I won’t leave you. We’ll take care of you.” Those words are sincere, even though you’re too scared and angry to take them at face value. I can see the tears continue to stream down your face right before you’re put to sleep. I hear the soft prayer you utter, crying out to your Heavenly Father for protection. I’m here to tell you He has NOT forgotten you. I promise. He loves you and He’s there with you. He has you and He won’t let go. Don’t listen to anyone who tells you you’re too old to cry or grow up. Crying is a release and you need to do so. Don’t be ashamed for expressing yourself. I wish I could tell you this surgery is the last one, but I would be lying, so, I’ll say this instead. You will soon get a reprieve. I can safely say that. It won’t be for three years, but it will come. Just keep holding onto faith and the kindness strangers show you in your time of need. Before you know it, you’ll reach the reprieve God has in store for you. And when you do, it’ll last a good long time. In fact, I can safely say, it’ll last fourteen years. I know it seems like a long time. I also know you’re probably thinking, ‘why can’t it be now?’ The truth is I don’t have an answer for you, little one. I know the phrase, ‘You’re too old to cry,’ hurts you more than the IV started on you earlier that day. I know because it hurt me too. I know all you want is for someone to hug you and say, ‘It’s okay to cry. It’s okay to be afraid.’ If I could, I’d have held you myself. I know that’s what you need. I know because I’ve been in your position more times than not. Just know that God is in that O.R with you, just as He is with you everywhere else you go. Even though people criticize you for showing fear, don’t ever stop expressing yourself. It’ll make you stronger. I know you don’t know this yet, but you have more inner strength than a lot of people. It’ll come in handy when you most need it. Rely on it and never be afraid to use it. That’s why God gave it to you. Above all, rely on Him. Rely on His strength, His love and grace to get you through the hard times ahead. I want you to remember that I know what you’re going through because I’ve been there. Mostly, I want you to remember you are loved. I love you, but most importantly, God loves you.
Love,
Your future self

Current Mood: grateful
Saturday, September 26th, 2015
10:30 pm
The Cat Who Taught Me a Lesson in Trust
I hurried out the door for church earlier tonight, unaware of the lesson God was about to teach me. Or more specifically, remind me. I’ve been dealing with some health issues these past few months. My glaucoma is still being monitored as well as one other thing that isn’t eye related. I had to get a woman’s exam a few days ago that did NOT go well. They told me I needed a mammogram. Now I’m not afraid of the film itself. I know it doesn’t hurt. I’m more concerned about the results. I’ve been praying, asking God to help me through it. Despite this, I’ve still felt fear re: what could possibly be wrong. I do trust God, but I sometimes need a reminder that He’ll always be there. Well, tonight He gave it to me in a way I could never have expected.

I got home from church tonight to find Rajah not here. I called his name, rattled his food bowl, but he didn’t come running as he usually does. I gave him a few minutes, thinking he had just fallen asleep while I was gone and he needed a minute to wake up. No response. It was then that I realized something was very wrong. Searching the apt one more time, I opened the door and called his name. Still no response. I started praying, asking God to keep Rajah Safe and bring him back to me. I closed the door and ate some dinner I had brought home while still keeping an ear out for Rajah’s meow. After eating two of the three tacos I had bought, I decided to check again. Opening the door, I heard the happiest sound in the world-Rajah’s bell as he walked towards the open door. I thanked God right on the spot and then beckoned my little escape artist back into the house. He came after a minute or so. Once Rajah was safely inside, I picked him up and cuddled him close. I told him how unsafe wandering the halls was and expressed my joy that he had come back by kissing him and rubbing his shoulders. He responded by purring and kissing me. As I held him close, I realized something. I didn’t know if he had been out there from the time I had left or just for that little amount of time after I had returned. Then I realized it didn’t matter. The important thing was he was safe and sound. I then heard God whisper something in my heart. “If I looked out for Rajah, what makes you think I won’t do the same for you? I took care of Rajah and brought him back to you. Fear not, my child. I will take care of you too.” I thanked Him again and let a few tears of relief and gratitude fall. The Father was right. If He looked out and took care of a precious cat, then He’ll take care of me as well. With that blessed assurance, what do I have to fear? So as the day of the mammogram grows nearer, any time I feel fear starting to grip me, I’ll remember how God used a precious little creature to remind me He’ll keep me safe just like He kept Rajah safe on his little adventure.
Aloha for now

Current Mood: Blessed
Monday, August 13th, 2012
4:32 pm
Power Rangers fanfic help, please!
To start this entry off, I've been a huge MMPR fan since the beginning! My fave Rangers are Kat, Aisha, Kim and Zack! I've been looking for a Kat centered story for a few months now. I read it a very long time ago, but now I can't find it! The story was about Kat's home life. Her stepfather was abusive and both of her parents drank heavily. They also expected Kat to do most of the housework. I remember a vivid scene where Kat calls for help after an especially bad beating. Jason arrives and threatens to break Kat's stepfather's arm for what he did to Kat. Kat/Billy friendship was also featured in the story as well. There is also a scene where Kat doesn't want to go home after school and i Think she stays in the power chamber for the night. If anyone recognizes this story or knows where I can find it, I'd really appreciate it! Thanks!

Current Mood: determined
Monday, June 4th, 2012
9:11 pm
New Disney Podcast!
Aloha everyone! i Hope everyone out there is doing well! i was just wondering if anyone would like to join my new Disney podcast? I'm going to be talking about Disney movies, TV Shows and various Disney music! Sometimes I'll do a podcast on a non Disney movie, but it will mostly be Disney stuff! All you need to join is skype! I hope to see you there!

Current Mood: ecstatic
Tuesday, March 13th, 2012
2:35 pm
I'm looking for a particular ER Fanfic!
I'm looking for a particular Abby story. I know i read it on fanfiction.net before, but I can't find it now. It was about Abby's daughter being bipolar. She has a melt down in a video store when they don't have the movie she wants. I remember that vividly. I also remember her being hungry at a weird hour around midnight I think. If anyone can help me find this story, I'd really appreciate it. Thanks!

Current Mood: hopeful
Monday, March 12th, 2012
9:40 pm
First Disney movie you ever saw?
Aloha everyone! I was just wondering what the first Disney movie you ever saw was? To make this more DPrincess related, what was the first Disney princess movie you saw as well? Is it one you still like til this day?

For me, the first official Disney movies I saw were Peter Pan and Pinocchio. I loved Peter Pan because I saw it with my best friend who was more of a sister to me. We were super close and we had an awesome time watching Peter Pan together! Wendy was always my favorite character and then came Michael! "Your Mother and Mine" was my favorite song. As for Pinocchio, I loved Jiminey Cricket. My favorite song was "Give a Little Whistle." i only saw Pinocchio once and that was fine with me. As for the first DP movie, it was Snow White and I dislikedi it with a passion! I was so scared by it that my parents and I had to leave the theatre. But when i saw TLM, I LOVED it! I tried watching SW again years later and I still didn't like it.
How about the rest of you?

Current Mood: curious
Sunday, November 20th, 2011
11:35 pm
Kicked Out of Pixie Hollow Unjustly!
That’s what happened tonight! I know I haven’t updated in a long time, but I’ll do a proper update after this entry. I just had to get this off my mind. I usually don’t let things like this bother me, but this is the second time this has happened!

It all started when I saw an update in the Pixie Hollow comm from someone asking when they were going to re air the Pixie Hollow Games. It turns out she had missed it twice. I commented on her entry, telling her that Disney Channel would probably rerun it and to look on YouTube as well. I then stated my opinion of the show, saying that Tink wasn’t in it enough for me and that the new fairies that were in it weren’t anything to write home about.

Well the original poster replies to it and accused me of disrespecting her. Then she deleted the comment. I sent her a PM and tried to explain that I wasn’t trying to disrespect her or what she had written. I was simply stating my opinion and I was NOT bad mouthing the show as she accused me of. The next thing I know, she replies to the message and bans me from the comm!

I honestly think that was uncalled for. I even stated in my message to her that I Hope her day got better and I was sorry she was having a bad one. I don’t understand why she fell the need to ban me. It wasn’t like I used vulgarity in my message or bashed the show. I just stated my opinion. She banned me before for something similar when all I did was ask a simple question. Needless to say, I’m trying not to let this bother me, but it’s a little hard. I’m missing Aunt Gracie a little more than I Thought I would despite the fact that we talked a few days before everything took place and I don’t need this on top of everything else. To top it off, I might not be going down to my Dad’s for Thanksgiving after all due to unexpected setbacks in moving plans for him and Tim.

As I write this entry, I’m watching TBAA: The Perfect Game and listening to a folder of songs. “We Are One” is on, which is calming me considerably. Then again, this song always calms down down.
Mesai an and Aloha for now

Who? God
What? He loves you.
Where? Everywhere
When? Always, forever, without ceasing.
How? Unconditionally, totally and completely.
Why? Because you are His child.

“God is here and He loves us. In spite of all the mistakes. And He has a plan for us all.” Gloria

Current Mood: frustrated
Thursday, November 3rd, 2011
10:26 pm
Seeing Dolphin Tale with Crystal!
Crystal and I went to see Dolphin Tale together two weeks ago! It was awesome beyond words! We had an awesome time and Crystal really liked the movie! She cried a little as well, just like I did. I think I startled her a little when i started cheering in a few places, but it was all good. We went to freshen up after the movie was over. While in the bathroom, we ran into a friend of Crystal's. She introduced me and I asked Bridget what movie she saw. She told me she saw Dolphin Tale, like us. She then said if I hadn't started cheering, she would have. GOL! All in all, seeing Dolphin Tale with Crystal was very enjoyable! I'll talk about my first time seeing it in another entry.
Mesai an and Aloha for now

Who? God
What? He loves you.
Where? Everywhere
When? Always, forever, without ceasing.
How? Unconditionally, totally and completely.
Why? Because you are His child.

“God is here and He loves us. In spite of all the mistakes. And He has a plan for us all.” Gloria

Current Mood: happy
9:58 am
JAWS Comes to Life!
While i was at Kim's, we were reading a story I had written when JAWS started acting up. I got a little frustrated and said, "No, go to the end, you idiot!" As I went to go to the next line, Samantha, the voice I was using was like, "Go away." Well Kim and I were cracking up at that for at least ten minutes!
Mesai an and Aloha for now

Current Mood: amused
Wednesday, November 2nd, 2011
10:24 pm
Disney Princess Mania
I'm making this entry public because I want everyone's opinion on it. I've been reading stories about the Disney Princess Designer dolls and how people are having so much trouble buying them. After reading a few stories, I've come to the conclusion that it's gotten a little out of hand. I honestly wouldn't pay $100 or more for a doll. I've never spent that much money for something like that in my life! I don't understand people who spend loads of money on collectables, even if it is Disney. I think it's ridiculous to do that.
What do the rest of you think?

Current Mood: curious
1:58 pm
Seeing Dolphin Tale with Kim!
This is a leftover entry from the second to last time I visited Kim, but I wasn’t’ sure if I had written about it in full detail yet, so here we are. As everyone knows who reads this journal, Kim, her mother and I went to see Dolphin Tale. This was a day before Aunt Gracie went to Heaven. I knew Aunt Gracie had had a set back, but I thought she would pull through.

Anyway, we got to the theater and the guy gave us a discount on the price for the movie. We’re about to leave when Kim’s mother explain she’s just walking us up. The ticket guy turns around and not only gives her a free ticket, but a free drink! She thanked him and we went on our way. After getting food, we went into the theater and found our seats. We talked for a few minutes while the first look was on since we had no desire to watch it. After the previews started, we just relaxed. Once the movie started, I sat up straighter in my chair and was engrossed from beginning to end. It was a good thing that I was sitting next to Kim on her left because I started crying just like I had the other three times I had seen it. At this time, I hadn’t seen it with Crystal yet.

Anyway, when winter swam for the first time, I cheered. Kim tried to hush me, but I ignored her. Then when winter swam for the first time with her new tail, I cheered again. Kim again tried to hush me, but I ignored her once again. I wasn’t the only one cheering at that point. When winter did something incredible towards the end of the movie, there was no controlling me. Kim even cheered a little, although she stopped sooner than I did. It was an awesome experience overall. I wasn’t ignoring Kim to be rude. I wasn’t going to stop cheering for anyone. A few other people were cheering along wig me too. Kim told me she liked the movie a lot, which made me happy. I remember when it first previewed during another movie Kim and I saw together. I expressed my desire to see it enthusiastically and Kim acted like it was the last movie on earth she wanted to see. I explained to her what it was about, but she still acted uninterested. I asked her why she didn’t want to give it a chance and she got frustrated with me, which I don’t like at all. There’s no need for her to get that way. She explained it looked to visual and I countered with it will probably be in descriptive. She grudgingly agreed. And low and behold, that’s how we saw it a few months later. Kim needs to stop stressing out so much and just give things a chance with an open mind.
Mesai an and Aloha for now

Who? God
What? He loves you.
Where? Everywhere
When? Always, forever, without ceasing.
How? Unconditionally, totally and completely.
Why? Because you are His child.

“God is here and He loves us. In spite of all the mistakes. And He has a plan for us all.” Gloria

Current Mood: frustrated
Monday, October 31st, 2011
11:40 pm
My Hocus Pocus Musings
I talked in my last entry about watching the movie Hocus Pocus this Halloween. I also said I would talk about the first time I saw the movie in another entry. Well, here we are!

I was around nine or ten when it first came out. Dad and I were at a friend’s house a she had rented it because we hadn’t seen it yet. I remember sitting close to Dad as it started. When it first started, I started getting a little scared during the beginning, but I was fine after the movie fast forwarded to our time. I liked Danni a lot and she quickly became my favorite char. I also liked Binx and Max too. I wasn’t able to watch the movie on my own until I was eleven. Hocus Pocus remains to be one of my favorite Halloween movies. I haven’t watched it in at least ten years. Tonight was my first time watching it in a long time. As I write this entry, I’m listening to the scene in the movie where Winifred sings “I put a Spell on you.” After Dad and I saw it, he started quoting the movie for fun! His favorite quote was from Winifred halfway through the movie. Winifred in frustration: “You know I’ve always wanted a child. And now I Think I’ll have one on toast!” When I heard it tonight, I started laughing and it brought back fond memories of me and my Dad just joking around about the movie.
Mesai an and Aloha for now

Current Mood: happy
Tuesday, October 18th, 2011
3:56 pm
BSLS #49-Karen's Stepmother Part 2/2
Aloha! I’m sorry for the long wait. Here is the last part of Karen’s Stepmother. I hope everyone likes it.
Enjoy!

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And that’s the end of the book!

I really enjoyed snaking this one. I’m goanna do Karen’s Two Families next to complete this story arc. I hope everyone doesn’t mind.

Current Mood: calm
Monday, October 17th, 2011
4:39 pm
When It Comes to Le Miss, Once is More Than Enough!
As the subject line states, when it comes to Le Miss, once is more than enough. As I said in my latest entry, Kim and I went to see Le Miss for her birthday on Saturday while I was there. I loved young Cassette and “Castle on a Cloud” is my favorite song. As for the rest of it, if it wasn’t’ for the describer and the one mistake a cast member made, I would have been more bored than I was. The describer kept messing a few of the names up! It was hilarious! He didn’t even get this one chick’s name right until the scene where she died! GOL! Then to top it off, one of the actors messed up in the actual play! It was during the scene where that Gean bal Gean dude comes to get Cossette. At one point, the couple who take her in and are horrible to her try to argue with the Gean dude. The husband is like, “Let’s not haggle for young dear Colette.” GOL! The wife turned around and was like, “It’s Cosette.” And the guy’s like, “Oh yeah, right.” GOL! Since I hadn’t seen the play before, I thought the guy was so neglectful, mean and abusive that he was supposed to forget her name. Kim informed me that he wasn’t supposed to do that. Let’s just say I was glad when it was over. I tried to find a Cossette souvenir, but they didn’t have anything. I might look on ebay. I had fun sharing the experience with Kim, but seeing Le Miss was enough for me.
Oh, one more thing that made the experience worth remembering. After the play finished (it was SOOO long!), I asked the guy helping us if we could meet the cast, but unfortunately he said no. The reason was because people ask that all the time and it’s impossible for the cast to come out after each performance; you’d have to be invited backstage. We were both very disappointed because I really wanted to meet young Cosette and Kim wanted to meet that Eponine girl who died in the second act. Anyway, Kim’s mom found us and we got in the elevator, which is when the miracle occurred. We heard someone’s mom say that the next show wasn’t until 7:30 and did her daughter want to get something to eat. a little girl agreed and then was asked if she liked playing Cosette. She said, “Yes, I Love it!” I was staring straight ahead and thinking that this girl sounded familiar. It wasn’t until they were getting off the elevator that The truth hit us like Piper blowing up a demon; Charmed fans will understand the reference. The little girl and her mother had just left and we were right behind them. I looked over at Kim and we whispered, “Oh my gosh!” We’d just missed our chance to meet young Cosette! I mensioned that aloud and Kim’s mom explained that the girl was pretending and that there was no way she could have been the same person since she had on a different outfit, “Her mom asked her which character in the play she’d like to be, and the girl said that she’d love to be Cosette.” Hello, I may not have enjoyed the play as much as Kim, but I know that young Cosette was only in the first act, so she definitely had time to change out of her costume. Kim’s mom didn’t convince either of os because her reasoning was flawed, and I thought she said she’d seen Les Mis two or three times! Kim and I are absolutely positive that we ran into the person playing youngCosette and her mother on the elevator and unfortunately missed our chance to meet her, but we’ll def never for get this experience.


Who? God
What? He loves you.
Where? Everywhere
When? Always, forever, without ceasing.
How? Unconditionally, totally and completely.
Why? Because you are His child.

“God is here and He loves us. In spite of all the mistakes. And He has a plan for us all.” Gloria
More about my time at Kim’s in the next two entries to come.
Mesai an and Aloha for now

Current Mood: okay
Wednesday, September 14th, 2011
3:05 am
BSLS #49-Karen's Stepmother Review Part 1
Title: Karen’s Stepmother

Book #49

Author: Ann M. Martin

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More soon!

Current Mood: happy
Tuesday, August 16th, 2011
5:56 pm
My Jem and the Holograms Musings
I know I’ve mentioned Jem and the Holograms a lot in my past few entries. I also promised to go into more detail about her and the show in another entry. Well Here we are!

Jem and the Holograms was an awesome show in the 1980’s. I grew up with it and I still love it til this day!

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I’ve been dealing with a Jem episode mystery for the longest time now! I hope any Jem and the Holograms fans out there might be able to help me solve it.

Is there an episode where Jerrica collapses and starts feeling really sick or weak after loosing her Jem Star earrings or maybe she was stuck as Jem and loossing strength for another reason. Out of all the episodes I watched when I was younger, I remember something like that very vividly, but I’m not sure what episode it was! I checked around, but I couldn’t find much info on it. If anyone can help me and solve the mystery, I’d really appreciate it.
Thanks in advance!
Mesai an and Aloha for now

Current Mood: hopeful
Saturday, July 16th, 2011
1:05 pm
How Young is Too Young for HP?
When Dad and I went to go see HP7-Part 2,there were only a few other people in the theater. One of them was a woman wit ha few small children. By small, I mean like two or three, maybe four-years-old. She had to keep asking them to be quiet several times. I even missed a small dialogue exchange when Harry and co were in the bank because the kids were yelling. I honestly don’t think she should have brought them with her. If she couldn’t find a baby-sitter, she should have waited for a night when she did have one. It was very distracting for everyone else. I love kids, but I don’t think you should bring kids younger than eight or nine to see Harry Potter. I’ll even go as far to say wait until they’re ten at the most.

What does everyone else think? At what age is it appropriate to bring kids to movies like Harry Potter?
Mesai an and Aloha for now

Current Mood: curious
Friday, July 15th, 2011
12:39 pm
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows-Part 2 in 3D!
My Dad ended up treating for the movies, which was nice of him. We got popcorn and a hot dog each since I hadn’t eaten anything proper since the day before. We brought water into the theater with us to save some money.

Seeing Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows-Part 2 in 3D was awesome! We really enjoyed it! I would love to see it in descriptive though since there were a few scenes that went by a little too quickly for me to keep up with. Something did happen while we were there that annoy me, but I’ll explain about that in another entry.

I cried during three different parts of the movie. One of them was very unexpected since it was in the book as well and I didn’t’ cry when I read it. It was when Snape died.

I Guess it has to do with hand awesome fanfic series I just finished reading on ff.net. It had to do with Harry having a younger sister named Paige. Paige was six months younger than Harry. Paige was awesome! She was in Slitherin despite the fact that she had more Gryffindor in her. When Snape died in the author’s version of Deathly Hallows, I started crying because Paige was so close to him and he had been loyal to her, despite his past problems with James.

The second part was when Harry’s mother talked to him after she came back to be part of his guard during his walk into the forbidden forest to face “you-know-who.” The scene was very bittersweet.

The third part was a very sweet scene between Harry, Hermione and Ron just before Harry goes to face “you-know-who.” It was one of my favorite scenes in the movie ,even though it was sad.

I also loved Luna in this movie! I LOVE her in all the movies she’s been in, but this one tops them all for her performance! “Harry James Potter, you listen to me right now!” That was awesome!

Another part I really loved was Harry’s interaction with Professor Magonagle! My favorite part of the book where harry saves her from the Caro’s wasn’t in it, but they did a good job supplementing for it.

The epilogue was pretty cool too! They kept my favorite part in it from the book, so I was happy. They also kept most of The Prince’s Tale in the movie as well! YAY! My Dad was cheerng when Mrs. Weasley killed Bellatrix as was I!
Overall, the experience was really nice. My Dad asked a lot of questions and made a lot of guesses that weren’t right, but it was fun all the same. My favorite one was when he kept saying the “You-know-who” was Harry’s brother! Then he thought Snape was Harry’s father! GOL! I also cried when Harry’s mother talked to him once she had come back with the others to be his guard when he went into the forbidden forest. I definitely want to see it at least one more time!
Mesai an and Aloha for now

Current Mood: pleased
Sunday, July 3rd, 2011
11:26 pm
Anyone want to join a DPrincess Podcast?
Aloha all Dprincess fans and lovers out there! If you're bored and need something to do, why not join us for a Dprincess podcast! All you need is skype and a microphone and you're good to go! Just add alicesongfan to your skype contact list and I'll add you to the discussion! We'll be discussing Brave as well as Tangled and Aladdin. Any suggestions you have for the podcast, feel free to join us and throw them out there!
Hope to see you there!

Current Mood: hopeful
Friday, July 1st, 2011
12:44 am
My Aladdin TV Survey
Hi! I thought I would create this “Aladdin” TV Survey for everyone to take! Just answer it in a reply and replace my answers with your own! Enjoy!

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I hope you’ve enjoyed taking this survey as much as I enjoyed creating it!

Current Mood: happy
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